My wife's cousin, Hope, borrowed my copy of Fight Club a long time back and has yet to return it (or even watch it). She lives in Austin, so it is a little hard to just run over there and get it, but I love that movie. Sure it is a little strange at first, but there are a lot of sub-plots and meanings going on in there.
Anyways, I am just mentioning this because that is how I have been feeling lately. Like life is just passing by. Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy. Every day is the same thing. Every night is the same night. Thank God for Miller Lite.
Anyways, life was more interesting when I was in school and every day held a range of events. I knew so many people, had so many friends. Now I have the few guys at work, but we don't really hang out much (except for Jeff... shout out to ya!!!). I used to get together a lot with some of the workers there for happy hour, but I don't do that anymore. I still have my friend Noe, but he is just married and is now in the boat I'm in. How do you find time for yourself with other friends without feeling like your abandoning your family? So alas I have basically no friends to hang with. To quite frank, I feel the most happy when I'm playing video games. It makes me feel like the whole world disappears. Right now I'm playing Halo 2 and Fable. Lots of fun.
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I have an idea. You can kill two birds with one stone. Get your mba. You'll have to attend class which would cover the new friend bit and you'll learn about business which will cover your future plans of starting a business.
I know how you feel Jonathan believe it or not. I'm not married but I still don't have any friends (or at least A LOT fewer than I used to) because they've all moved away, gotten married, had children etc.
Anyway, I thought it was because I was NOT married that I was feeling so lonely and lost, but that can't be it if you are feeling the same way.
Hey, I know just how you feel. College was such a luxury - to have lots of free time and folks always around. I actually used to play video games - in college. You could sit with a bunch of guys in a room drinking beers playing Mortal Kombat for hours, with no worries. Or do something spontaneous - imagine that, being spontaneous!. Everything now needs to be so planned out. To hang out in our free time we need to schedule 2 weeks in advance to get that 1 hour together. I guess the lesson is you can't have it all. You can't live your life traveling, trying everything under the sun and have the wife and kids experience. Both are great, but it's physically impossible to have both. So just save your money (and stay healthy) so when your kids are 18 you can kick them out and then do what you want! Hopefully you'll have the desire by then - if the world hasn't beaten it out of you. But, just thank God you don't dig ditches for a living - cause then you'd have nothing to look forward to!
By the way, I think it's great you are still doing music and other things. At least you haven't let it all go. Keep it up. I always say I want to write, but I never make it a priority - which it should be.
That reminds me of some other stuff I miss from my youth. I used to have friends who were all totally into music (we were all into the same bands - mostly The Smiths/Morrissey). We went to every concert, scoured the music stores for every rare import, read everything we could about what these artists were doing. I miss that too!
I'm not too sure about the MBA thing. It's a big time committment. And will it help you start your own business - maybe. The best thing you'll probably get is some good contacts. But I'm not sure if you'd find any true friends. Just a bunch of full time workers squezzing class in in the evening then rushing home to their families. But it's good to always push yourself and learn something new.
Shout out to you JOEK!
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